the morning has been very productive. thing 2 is at mother’s day out. thing 1 is playing happily in his room. i’ve been to the grocery store, got laundry started, dishes done, and beds made… so, now what?
i’m sitting here with a few open hours– and, this is where the trouble starts. i should sit down and have a quiet moment with the Lord– but i am tempted to be selfish. this little voice inside my head (that sounds remarkably like telly savalas) starts saying things like.. “just take a break. eat a cookie. watch 12 hours of america’s next top model.“ (‘cause you know you can find some tyra banks and 12 skinny chicks on– at a moments notice)
this sad distraction i’ve dubbed slugfest has caught me on a number of occasions– i can name my favorite antm cycle, photo shoot, and winner as proof (sad, but true). when this happens– i’m usually crabby, have a headache, and really want to take those girls to get a burger. and, at the end of this mind-numbing marathon i’m empty and still left with the question… so, now what?
but, when i just say “no” to my telly savalas brain and a one-way ticket to the slugfest– and choose to spend time in God’s word, or spend my free time writing my sweet sister a letter of encouragement, or step out of mommy-mode long enough to play with the boys– there’s no room for the emptiness of “now what” because i’m filled with the understanding that this is all there is.